Wow! It’s been two months since I have blogged anything. I wish I could use the excuse that things get hectic around the holiday season but I would just be lying to myself and falling back into my hold habits. “The holiday season this”, “The holiday season that”, are coming phrases we hear at the end of each year. Phrases that people don’t put much thought into but if we admit it to ourselves these phrases are nothing more than excuses to cover up something we have either chosen or not chosen to do. And if I sit and truly think about it the holidays of 2015, were quite bland and uneventful to say the least. Oh there were the usual holiday get togethers, the graduations of some of my dearest friends, the traditional gift exchange, and so on, but this holiday season the loneliness began to set in. I wish I was wise enough to say that with time not surrounded by family and my friends all away for the holidays I spent this time truly hunkered down and completely engrossed in God’s Word, but I didn’t.
With the New Year I knew there were changes to be made but I feel like I started this year doing what God has wanted me to do and yet still feel as lost as I was a few months back. I do have a trip to Israel planned and though my finances may scream at me not to go, I know that God was leading me to go on this trip. Through one of my devotions last week God pointed out the verse Jeremiah 29:11 to me. I always thought the verse was over quoted but God was able to show me this verse in a new light. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not for evil, plans to give you a future and a hope.” No matter how much I stress and fret about my future what I need to stay focused on is His Word and if I keep my walk consistent and focused on Him the plans He has for me will fall into place. It is when I deviate from Him that my worries and fears become reality. God is not a god that wants us to mess up. What He wants is for us to trust that He has our best interest at heart and that we may only be able to see a day or a week into our future but He sees our entire future.